I’m sitting here… not studying.  That’s what I’m suppossed to be doing, but for some reason I’m just here, sitting, listening to nothing, staring blankly at my computer screen. A twisted chaotic nightmare of a weekend, a lost friend and a world of frustration, hurt and pain. But through this weekend of misery a few good things rose from the dark depths of the nightmare. I think of all that has been lost, and what was gained. Exhaustion creeping over my body like fog over a lake. My mind becomes cloudy, images sliding through the depths of my conscious. I let myself drift, I let myself not care, but care at the same time. Images playing over and over. Fast forward, rewind, fast forward, rewind. My mind becoming a machine as my body sinks deeper into the depths of the night. All that I can think is that I just want all this chaos and anarchy to stop, I want this nightmare to cease, I want all this all to come to an end.